Jan. 2nd, 2011 @ 01:27 pm (no subject)
I haven't updated anything in so long, it's actually dragging me down. Well, I should say it's dragged me down. I had no idea how isolated I actually was until I started doing things here at home. And how odd it might be for me to actually have two real life friends in real life who live near me and will have coffee with me and everything!

But then, as I usually do, I went to extremes, and closed off one world for another.

I can't do that. It's unhealthy in general, and especially for me. I'm so easily swayed against one side or another, and distracted by some other kind of life that I lose myself into things. No, that might not make a whole lot of sense, but consider this: even while on my meds, I can never "not" be bipolar, and I'm always, ALWAYS afraid that people don't like me.

It's almost like I accept that nobody likes me, and then when people do, it's like the greatest gift in the world. Not a conscious thing, mind you! I don't want to be like this, it's a condition I have no control over!

I want to draw again and have it feel good. I want to write again and feel like it's making a difference. I'd also like to have internet friends and fans again.

And I understand that I've lost almost all of them in my hiatus. But I'm willing to start from scratch again. I can do it.

This post is the beginning. I'm going to a movie with family this afternoon, and then tonight, I'm going to draw something again. And if I can get my scanner working, I'll scan it and share it. ^_^

and then go look for communities to post in.

Wish me luck.
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From:[info]deborak
Date: January 2nd, 2011 - 09:48 pm
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Good luck! I hope you enjoyed the movie. :-)
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From:[info]littleblackbow
Date: January 3rd, 2011 - 03:11 am
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It was great. Sort of a family tradition to see it. Every year between Christmas and New YEars (and this year the weekend after), the film society of Minneapolis/Saint Paul shows Ronia: The Robber's Daughter.

As far as we know, the only english subtitled print in the US.
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From:[info]bethbethbeth
Date: January 3rd, 2011 - 01:13 am
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Welcome back, my dear!

Hope you enjoyed the movie (...what did you see?)
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From:[info]littleblackbow
Date: January 3rd, 2011 - 03:13 am
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It was great. We saw Ronia: The Robber's Daughter, a Swedish film made in 1984.

As far as we know, the only English subtitled print in the US, and they just got a new copy of it, so it was gorgeous!

I've been pretty much out of it. How is fandom doing? I know it's lagged a lot since the books ended, and a lot of people have shifted fandoms from HP to other things.

But I've had Snape on the brain lately.
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From:[info]bethbethbeth
Date: January 3rd, 2011 - 03:19 am
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Oh, that sounds extremely cool! (I wonder if it's available around here?)

And fandom is...still chugging along. I'm in the millionth hour of putting together tonight's edition of snapenews, so at least the Snape side of the fandom is still busy. :)
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From:[info]littleblackbow
Date: January 3rd, 2011 - 04:24 am
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yay! And if all goes well, you'll have some new art from me for the next issue. I just have to get my scanner working. For some reason, it keeps choking. I dunno what's going on with it. :(
From:[info]myheartinhiding
Date: February 23rd, 2011 - 10:18 am
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Hi, Rana! I haven't forgotten you. Good to see you back--how's your mother doing?
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